Can a soul feed on nourishment of friendship and love from family,
despite love from a relationship to live?
If so, Why am i feeling empty..lonely..and lost deep within me?
No music can excite me
No movie can touch my heart
I cant feel anything that speaks right into my heart..
Its like my threshold of excitation has gone up
Until such mild stimulus can no longer produce an effect..
Its like an addiction to drugs
After awhile, the usual dose seem to be insignificant
There goes a greater jab to once again feel the euphoria most people crave for..
I am not complaining about my life
In fact, I am happy with my friends
I love going to uni
I have a great family..
It's just...
There is this something that is lacking
I myself cannot figure it out
"Malnutrition" perhaps...
I cant feel the world like i used to when i was a girl
My focus had unwittingly narrowed
I dont want a perspective like this..
Numb is the word for me now
Hate to be such discontented and ungrateful
Thats the ugly side of me...
Sorry for blasting this emo post..
Just need some room to vent it out..